Month: December 2020

When I was a young man we used to have these things called “parties”. Nowadays we use the word party to mean a collection of idiots – for instance “the conservative party”. But when I was a young whippersnapper, back in 2019, perfectly reasonable individuals would gather together in the same place and render themselves circular with liberal application of toxic ethanol. Sometimes we would throw arms around one another or dance or snog somebody before you ask their name. You’d share drinks. You’d brush up against one another without noticing, just as part of an interaction. A hand on the shoulder for emphasis. An affectionate pat. We’d gather together indoors and share an experience, an evening, a few hours. Years later we’d still remember it in flashes with old friends. “Fuck me yes I remember, and everybody was smoking in the kitchen and stubbing cigarettes into an old doner kebab.” Hot sweaty throngs with the music too loud and everybody shouting. Too many people and not enough chairs. Some good looking arsehole upstairs being mean to people because he secretly hates himself. The guy who is always hammered falling over on the TV. An entire bottle of red wine on the bed because a friend insisted on bringing Jonty and Jonty turned out to be a jerk. Somebody losing their coat, somebody else crying uncontrollably. The tough friend conversation: “I love you. You’re drunk. You’re being a twat. Go home.” Protestations of love and lust. The guy who keeps vanishing and coming back touching his nose and talking loudly.

Waking up the next morning to find chicken bones on the sofa and a fucked microwave somebody found in the street containing Tom’s PhD thesis. Somebody on the sofa called Mog who somehow ends up sleeping there for three more nights before you pluck up the courage to ask him who he is. “Oh sorry mate, I thought this was a squat”. Emerging into the light of the next day to discover you’re still dressed as a caveman and everybody outside is wearing a suit and walking quickly and you feel like you don’t fit.

Back in the real world your stomach muscles hurt for a week from playing “Everybody pick up the same cereal packet off the floor using just teeth with only your feet touching the floor” or “Limbo” or “let’s all swap clothes” or “let’s play hide and seek” where you decided to fold up into a chest and everybody else got bored and stopped playing. Whenever your head or body hurts you smile at the memory and then grimace because you said a stupid thing that literally nobody remembers but you. And you never work out how you got that cut on your leg.

Laid out like that it doesn’t sound as glamorous. But I miss it. The throng – all those vile bodies all in one place. This time of year was crazy, back when I was a whippersnapper, before we needed a permit to go to the shops.

Ahhh those heady nights overheating because the radiators are all on and forty people are dancing in coats in a room the size of a doctor’s surgery for six hours.

We’d be in Christmas Carol now. Crazy crazy Carol. We would BE the party. “Ebenezer, can we buy you some wine?” Jack and I would be dosed up on everything possible to get us through the next three weeks without turning into a puddle. In Covidland, we would have been vectors.

Looking back over my blogs, it’s a year today since I walked in to an audition and came out with a part in a nice thing – thank God for that. I was drinking hard, fighting myself hard, working hard but not taking any time to reflect or improve myself. Work party work party work until the work is the party and the party is the work.

Maybe this Brave New World is good for a while, as I take the winter sober and mostly alone in order to approach hibernation by my standards. I’m still spinning all the plates. But at least I’m not obliterating myself on purpose at the same time. Maybe I’ll be able to take some of the plates and put them away soon. But… the party. Sometimes I miss it.

It all started when I was in Pets at Home Battersea. I was purchasing some luxury food items for the gentleman snake. It always involves walkie talkies and waiting. They have to dig around in the freezer. So I looked at the fish tanks while I waited.

I like fish. We kept them when I was a kid. Lots of them died – well, all of them eventually but lots of them in a short space of time. Much of it was to do with one of our friends putting dettol in the tank for jokes. Then, another time, they were basically all eaten by the catfish.

“I wonder how much it costs to get a fish tank,” I found myself thinking, remembering those happy weird days of fishiness.

A 100 litre tank in the pet shop with no accessories had a price tag of £130. Then there’s an aerator, nice things for them to swim around in, a heater, a cabinet to put the tank on top of – not to mention the fish. Too much. Nevertheless I’ve got my phone in my hand. Ebay. “Fish tank”.

And Lo! – on eBay there’s a tank and it’s two hundred litres. It’s huge, comes with all extras and what’s more there’s something like 17 fish already in it. There it is, with a big red “Buy it now” button. “Must know how to move fish safely.” Hmm.

I’m in a pet shop. I ask somebody how you move fish. Next thing I know she’s gone and got me twenty “fish moving bags”. I’m getting the blow by blow on air to water ratio in the bag. On how to acclimatise fish to a new environment. Interesting. I reckon I can do this. I click the big red button. I buy the lot. Oh well.

The tank is in Greenwich. I had this impulse last night. I’m collecting it with a van on Wednesday afternoon.

With the cabinet it’s almost as tall as am. It’s huge. It weighs a ton…

There’s nothing like having 17 incoming fish to spur a bit of motivation. I made good headway into the boxing, sorting and understanding of bulk glassware and ceramics, trying to make an alleyway where this huge unwieldy tank can be quickly carried and safely deposited. It’s a double whammy. The fish tank van will then be going to Yorkshire with the entire remaining contents of storage and as much of the stuff in my flat as I can fit in with it. It’s all booked. We are go go go. Furniture out, fish in. It’s a karmic exchange of sorts I guess. And if they become a burden, it’ll be easy to move them on again. Right now though I’m digging it. Fish! And a snake! And me! The little cold blooded family is growing. Just so long as the snake doesn’t get into the tank with the fishes. That’d be worse than dettol and a hungry catfish.

Finally, some furniture is out. My experiment with Rosebery’s Auction House continues apace. They’re fussy, but so long as we aren’t paying to store it anymore I’m fine. I just don’t want anything back so I hope they price it right. Furniture is my blind spot. And glass. I’m getting a bit better at both. But still got a long way to go. I got a zipvan and we drove it across town. Could’ve picked a better time of day for it. I had to add an hour. Still, I’m sure we will get more than £30.

It’s fun, knowing what things are. I quite like it. I think the key is to shut up about the things you recognise unless asked. My hackles would always go right up when somebody started telling me about my own things. “You know that painting of your mum is by … / SHUT UP”.

But solicited I guess it’s ok. And now I’ve helped myself I can help others. A friend of mine might want me to come and look at some things for her in her mum’s old place. She got burgled but they only took a ring and a computer – much like the bastards who broke into my car.

I guess things are desperate these days. A ring they can try to hock for £80 is going to pay for Christmas. So long as they don’t end up in prison first. I wonder if they have Christmas meals in prison. It’s not worth the negative energy to find out.

Not only is the risk of getting rumbled hanging heavy over whoever did it, but also the wordless curses of the ghosts who had the ring before, plus the bad juju emanating from my friend, her brother and even me at their foray into occupied space.

I’ve booked a job next week driving some things across town in a Luton van for somebody else. They are expensive things to hire, so I’m thinking about how I can capitalise on it when I’ve got the thing. Out of hours I might try to go up to Yorkshire with it full of the rest of the stuff and just see what good old Tennants can do with it. I was wrong about them jobbing all the plates. They jobbed the crap plates. I’ve also got a lead to a place in Bury St Edmunds which is closer to town but less familiar. Once again I’m spinning all the plates, and trying to work out how I can optimise my time without all that pesky sleep getting in the way. Before long I’ll be craving the simplicity of lockdown again.

It might be better to just extend the rental by a day I guess. Spending money instead of stretching myself so thin I’m microscopic. It’s unfamiliar…

I drove to the post office, took one look at the queue and messaged “Mandy” on eBay to say that her basket wasn’t going to be dispatched today. Everybody has something they need to post it seems, and with them all distancing, the queue for the post office stretched almost all the way to Richmond. My little expedition had been by way of trying to feel like I’ve achieved something today. The basket doesn’t feel particularly pressing as net profit will likely amount to about 0.79p. But in eBay selling land we are all subject to the God of Feedback, and a single sniffy review for a cheap basket will make it considerably harder for me to sell much more precious items in future. It’s mostly a numbers game with the items I’m sorting now.

Today I listed a load of dolls. With apologies to my mother, knowing that I’m almost certain not to have a daughter now, and Catherine would prefer a lizard, I’m selling her Sindy Weekenders Doll. And those weird Steiff Mecki hedgehogs I found. They won’t fetch much. But I live in a mountain of stuff and in the long run it’s charity shops or Ebay or another decade of storage. Slowly I’m whittling it down.

I’ve booked a van for tomorrow for me to take furniture across London. It’s going from storage to Rosebery’s and from thence, I hope, to far flung places where people will love these items that have cost us many times their value in the forgetting-tax in order for us to get this far. It’s not all of it, because Rosebery’s man isn’t identifying as representing a place that shifts everything. Also I dissed William from Chiswick and it seems likely they’re friends. “He’s a dick.” “He doesn’t work for Chiswick anymore…” “Good riddance to him,” I said. And only hours later heard the inflection that implies he might work for Rosebery’s now.

There’s always a baseline for auction houses and every auction house seems to want to raise their minimum lot value to make their life nicer. As I know from eBay, this is about trying to make the best use of time. I wasn’t going to queue for Mandy’s basket. That 0.79p already involved me researching, listing, finding an envelope the right size, and adjusting the price for a month or so until somebody finally took it off my hands. Tomorrow there are plenty of things that have to be posted so her package won’t weigh so heavy.

I’ve even packed up an old rucksack to post tomorrow, in parcel paper that came from one of the hugely overwrapped pictures we have. I’m getting very good at making packages for things. God I want an acting job. But meantime I’ll keep on getting excited about sellotape and the difference between one auction house and the next. Roll on, that elusive telly audition. Roll on and roll in.

One of the Buddhists in my local area died today. When I first met her she was old to my eyes, but the light was shining brightly. She even came round my flat once when my gohonzon was enshrined – up that flight of stairs. I remember her at meetings in the area. Mobility limited but shining eyes and wisdom. Lung cancer. It’s got me back to contemplating mortality, and how fragile this all is.

We get pissed off because somebody calls us something we don’t like or our friend believes in something we think is stupid. We worry because we haven’t got enough of the made up money numbers we all swap with each other for things. We get sad because we thought we might be asked to spend our time doing work for the money numbers but somebody else got to do it instead. But all the while, somewhere in the coming time, all of us will just … die. And that’s more than just an idea, that’s a cold hard fact. We will cease utterly in this realm of understanding.

What happens next? I once had a vision of the creation of the universe. The smash out of nothing into everything. It came out of deep contemplation of oblivion and a question of what would be necessary to splinter a single divine consciousness into the myriad of identities we all variously think we inhabit – these consciousnesses that grow like plants, solidify, maybe fuck around for a few decades and then cease or go somewhere else. I left the vision still confused but comforted in the sense that this strange beauty of existence will carry on and go round and round, and the energy that is currently coalescing into “this one” that we pretend to be – that energy will lodge elsewhere. The only thing lost will be the hubris of this specific individual identity – a pride that my vision found delightful and hilarious in equal measure. We even give it a name, this swirl of constantly moving particles. “Al Barclay”. Ha! We are an idea making decisions about what ideas it likes, and then we are sad when we can no longer be coterminous with other friendly ideas that we liked.

Another energetic being that I briefly shared space with has gone somewhere else – to heaven, back into the flow, back round again, whatever you have decided you believe and a million things besides. We will all go back sometime, some of us sooner, others later.

Everyone leaves a hole. That’s the incredible and sad and wonderful thing about it all. Nobody is ever quite the same as somebody else. Everybody brings something different to this weird consensus of existence.

Life is so precious while we live it. When we are gone the touches we left can continue, to affect the world we thought we were in – the moments shared and the wisdom imparted can stay for others to touch. Memory can be as real as dreaming, dreams can be as real as living. It’s only that we insist we are stuck in the forward flow of time – perhaps for the sake of sanity. There’s only so many dimensions we can fully encounter before the identity thing gets lost in them forever. So we muddle on until we stop.

My district all got together to make the same noises as each other for a while on zoom. We find it comforting and have decided it’s powerful. Back when the noises were first carved out the world was less cluttered so I’m willing to believe the ones we call Buddhas could hear the universe more clearly. Now with all the distraction and white noise, all the ideas hounding us, tempting us, attacking us, comforting us, it’s pleasant to retreat into a shared idea in honour of an energy moved on. Nam myo ho renge kyo. Fare forward, good heart. Stay safe.

My Fitbit thinks I’ve run 16 miles today. I’ve been in constant cardio or fatburn since noon. It was the same yesterday. I’m glad I get tomorrow off. This is going to get me in good shape for Christmas whether I like it or not.

Joy BOMB. It came through Caroline. Caroline has used me a few times over the years for craziness. She knows that craziness is something I do very well. Last time I collaborated with one of her artists I got to sit down and have beautiful intimate conversations with strangers in a caravan. I got to learn a new deck of tarot. It was wonderful.

This time though, it’s IN YOUR FACE.

Amy made it. She’s a force to be reckoned with as well. Sharon is outside in the freezing cold wearing pink all day, explaining to people what’s going on! All these remarkable women sharpening to the weird point of Marie and myself in a window dancing all day with ridiculous heads on.

Amy the artist lost her husband to ALS recently and this is her response to it. An explosion of joy in a central London location. Good response. It’s a moment of colour and silliness in the closing month of this year where we have been so starved of joy. ALS shuts you down inside yourself. She used to make these beautiful silly things for the man she loved – to bring joy to his shutdown state. Now she’s making these things in honour of him for all the random people who pass our window.

So many people have experienced shutdown from the familiar. Everybody is in mourning this December. The world has shifted on its axis. Fear anger and pestilence all hang over us as we go about our business. Might as well smile at the dancing frog.

I’m loving it. My stomach muscles feel vacuum packed and there’s a war of lactic acid in my calves. But dancing all day in stupid clothes is precisely what I do for fun every summer in a normal year. This time I’m just doing it in winter. In a window. It feels like something silly for the right reason at the right time. I’m very happy to make a fool of myself if it’s for the right reasons. Especially if I can have fun at the same time.

Instagram is @joybomblondon. There are definitely videos of me jumping up and down like a pogo stick. Who knows what else – I still haven’t sussed out Insta. My insta is @alecsparkly and I rarely post. Maybe now’s the time to start??!!

Problem is I never take photos. I never remember. This is the only photo I took all day, and I took it just now cos I needed one.

I’m on the bed in my scarf as it’s that cold…

It’s unlikely I’m going to get up early enough in the morning to walk myself to Bond Street for Joy Bomb. Today I certainly didn’t. I had to take the tube. It’s a strange world, the underground right now. Adverts for summer festivals vie for attention with dystopic police state notices enforcing behaviours. A couple of institutions have added colour with Christmas ads. They bring a kind of relief. It’s a dark place in those tunnels.

In a normal winter, other Londoners detest you for existing. This winter it’s okay to show it. I walked into the Circle Line carriage and looked at an empty seat. The woman three seats down from the one I looked at hit me with such a palpable stare of distaste that I remained standing. It was only two stops to the change. I walked through those subterranean corridors barely approaching another soul. On the opposing downward elevator to the jubilee line, a woman with immaculate makeup and beanie hat was diligently and fastidiously sanitising her hands the whole way down. A few stops on a strangely empty train to Bond Street and oh, is that a sign saying “Please carry water with you in hot weather.”

It’s two degrees out there. It’s a long time until hot weather. Still, I should’ve carried water with me today. Not for the heat. It was cold. Just for the fact I was dancing all day. It’ll be good for me, this job.

I’m dancing in a window again for art. We had a pile of people come and take photos. Some big names in fashion magazines. And a constant trickle of constant trickles. “Influencers,” they call themselves, and it would be ungrateful to call the lot of them personality vacuums.

Marie and I just danced, and squealed, and jumped up and down, and yowled. My Fitbit recorded over 20k paces without my moving. My heart rate was in Fat burn for most of 9 hours, so I’ll be in good shape for Christmas.

Another 8 hours tomorrow. It’s past eleven and Lou is here. I’m exhausted. I even had time to hurriedly plan Christmas in my lunch break. Christmassy Christmas. Joy to the world.

Not gonna edit tonight. First draft HO.

Night lovelies.

Yesterday one of the tyres on the Audi burst. It was completely flat by the time I got to the storage with the auctioneer guy, but there was a placeholder in the back. Max was with me, so once he was done telling me what was what we jacked it up and switched it over. The little placeholder is not particularly robust and it has no grip. “No faster than 50mph,” it says. It’s pouring with rain. I was going to go to Brighton tonight in a storm.

“I don’t trust you not to get carried away and drive over fifty,” says Lou, who has driven extensively with me. She might be right. I like the roar of that Audi. Max is in on it too. They don’t even know each other so I can’t think they’re colluding. “I’m worried about that wheel long distance in the rain,” says Max. Me? I hadn’t even thought about it. I was just going to bimble down to the coast and back. Maybe see the sea, maybe get killed, maybe get some fresh air. I just wanted to see Lou.

She’s right though, and Max too. If I’m not going to look after my own safety, it’s nice occasionally to notice other people doing it. I shouldn’t be throwing the car around until I’ve put a decent wheel on. SensibAL. So I stayed at home and looked into a box of my mother’s dolls…

It is SO WEIRD to experience the toys of your deceased mother for the first time. Little word games on pieces of paper and sweet unusual dolls in dresses and ones that have eyes that open and close and … eew

I got a really clear picture of the child that owned those dolls, and I’m trying to work how that child became the woman that I said “I’m a grown up now mum gurrrr stop treating me like a child” to. There’s a Sindy doll there that was manufactured six years before she got married to dad. There’s a hedgehog smoking underneath a lamppost in a fur coat. Steiff 1960’s apparently. I asked the internet.

I had to put it all away before long. Information overload. I haven’t triggered like that for a while with this stuff.

Grief goes round and round. It retreats and then it surges like the tide.

Instead of going to Brighton I’m here again in the flat she was once in, still sleeping in the dining room instead of her bedroom. What’s that about? It’s fifteen years and more. It’s old now, and I know its name.

I guess I’m just tired so it’s easy to be sad. It’s also fine to be sad. Feeling and expressing is the best way of avoiding build-up.

I miss her, the lovely sensitive mother who was once the child of my grandparents and had a hedgehog streetwalker and a load of German dollies.

We were back Joybombing today – being happy and energetic in a window to give people a moment of odd colour. I got over 10k paces on my Fitbit without leaving the room. I’m pooped.

Night lovelies. Hope you’re all well. Bathtime. 😉

I ate nothing all day and then I had a whole fish pie in under 90 seconds and now I feel sick. The reason I consider this worth sharing is that my Facebook feed is finally fixed – (I think) – about seven months after I somehow broke it. If my calculations are correct this will actually show up on my bullshit Facebook “promote me” page. I thought it would be useful to remind prospective readers here of the depth of banality we’re dealing with on a day to day basis.

To all those people who ask me why I stopped blogging: I didn’t. I do like people to come here and hopefully leave with something even if it’s just a smile. But I suffer from being uncomfortable about promoting myself, so the very fact I write this at is therapeutically helpful in terms of putting myself out there – it’s turning into a very powerful personal discipline in general, the writing and sharing process. So fixing the nuts and bolts of Facebook was a long way down the list over just getting something written that’s acceptable. I’m my own editor. My editor is a fussy bastard – I wish he’d kept on drinking as back then I could write any old shit and he’d let it past.

Recently my editor has started thinking about trying to promote my scribblings a bit. Hopefully he’ll get round to something before long.

Let’s do statistics! Everybody loves statistics.

*rummage*

One thousand four hundred and twenty consecutive days I’ve hurled my moments in your faces. A little under 900,000 words. Good God. Not far from a million. You poor poor people.

It’s extremely helpful with my tax return, knowing roughly what I was doing every day for nearly four years. There’s an unexpected benefit.

And never fear, oh returning reader. My life appears to work a bit like The Archers. You can drop in after months and pick up the thread easily.

What’s new?

There’s a person who appears to like cuddling me. That’s new since May. I’ll likely be evasive about details on purpose. She’s off on Vipassana for two weeks anyway very soon. You’ll start to think I’ve made her up.

I’m off the booze, but that’s always been up and down like a yoyo. It’s comparatively solid this time though. It’ll be like this for a while.

It’s December and I’m not playing Scrooge, but that’s because of a global pandemic and it’s only to be expected.

The rest is pretty consistent with what was going on in May when the feed broke after an ill advised boozy rant.

I’m still wondering about where the next dollar might manifest so rants like that aren’t helpful.

I’m still surrounded by a vast collection of unusual items from all sorts of different places and eras too.

I still occasionally geek out into astrology or games or sport or literature. Rants still take place – as how could they not? Baths still feature heavily. I’m just as useless at remembering to take a photograph as I always have been. I have a bedroom full of owls.

And I still feel sick from my fish pie. So I’m going to have a bath.

There we go. That’s a blog, from beginning to end, right there, above these words. I didn’t tell you anything about the people from Rosebery’s auction house who came over to look at stuff here and in storage. All sorts of things happened today and none of it made the blog. Selective with the truth, that Al Barclay. Can he be trusted? Maybe he’s the true cause of Covid? I always knew he was a wrong’un.

Happy lockdown end, UK bunnies. I expect you’re all running around licking each other right now. I’m going to scrub.

And so, to bath.

My dishwasher is one of my most loved luxuries. It’s weird. If I’m round somebody else’s house I quite frequently find myself working through a pile of washing up in the sink just by way of contributing. But when I’m at home I’m not going near the washing up – it goes in the machine. Maybe I think of washing up as a holiday…

It’s very useful though, the machine, for my purposes. As I discovered in summer, you can dismantle, wash and rebuild chandelier crystals in a dishwasher much more efficiently and quickly than any other means of cleaning the damn things. I’m pretty good at getting the right wash for the right item as well. I’ve washed some extremely precious things over time without affecting them. Lots of them have subsequently fetched good prices at auction. You don’t have to tell people how you cleaned them, and the things sell better when they’re shiny.

Problem with a dishwasher habit is you get through those little tabs at an alarming rate, and because a dishwasher is a luxury, the tabs are marked up. I’m running out. I ordered some more online. But rather than just mindlessly buying the branded ones from the quickest delivery place, I went to an ethical online superstore. I bought these tabs that are probably made of camel dung and orange peel, but they’ll do the trick and they might not kill the planet so much. But they’re taking forever to arrive in the post and I’m having to manage my entitlement.

We are so conditioned to having everything immediately we notice when we have to wait three days. It’s harder to sell things on eBay even these days because it doesn’t always arrive the second you win the bid. I’m going through correspondence written in the early 1900’s at the moment, and back then, people knew they’d have to wait. Now it’s a different world, where I can pull something out of my head at random and set a stopwatch and find it. I’m going to do it now. I’m alone so I have to say a random feasible thing to myself. A CLOCKWORK LLAMA. GO.

Yep. 27 seconds later and I have multiple options for something I wasn’t even sure existed less than a minute ago. Including these two on Amazon which, if I wanted them, would be with me on Saturday for less than a tenner.

Before Covid they would have been with me tomorrow. Amazon was the third hit on my search – there are two independent companies who have paid Google to try and get their hits up and pull some business away from the megalithic all consuming monobrand. But a lot of people would ignore the independents and just click on Amazon instead – perhaps because at some point they’ve been suckered into paying for Prime, perhaps just because I WANT IT NOW MUMMY NOW!

Lots of us have turned into absolute bastards because of the internet. We’ve forgotten how to wait.

Seriously, if you want clockwork llamas, go to The Gift and Gadget Store, or to Funtime Gifts. They want your business. They probably pay tax. They aren’t trying to remove all competition and – eventually – have a monopoly on everything where they can charge what they like and run the world. And if the website is annoying because it doesn’t already know everything about you and have a one-touch link to your PayPal, and if it takes a day or so more for your llamas to arrive, just think how much harder it would have been thirty years ago to convert the idea of a clockwork llama into the reality of a pair of them that you can race on the weekend. Just think for a second before throwing more money into the big bald moneysink.

Convenience is a killer. It makes us lazy and impatient, and brings us one step closer to being batteries. Sure, in its place, it’s amazing. Brian got a Victorian nightgown for Scrooge this time a few years ago in time for the first show, when we discovered the existing one was torn right up the side. It was an actual Victorian actual nightie. With frilly tassles. Overnight. From Amazon. Humbug. But yes, in its place the speed is great.

But not for literally everything. Not for dishwasher tablets made of happy algae and fairydust. I can wait for them, and get my hands wet in my own sink for a day or so until they arrive.

If you’ve got the habit, try and restrain yourself just once, next time. Look around and maybe pay a few pence more for something that goes into a better pocket than the black hole of Bezos. And if you’re going to be a tributary to the Amazon, at least be aware of how incredibly fortunate we all are right now not only to have this convenience, but also to still have competition – just about.

So maybe, now lockdown is ending, maybe go outside, walk into a shop – ding-a-ling. Buy from the ailing High Street before there’s nothing left but coffee shops and pubs…

I’m as bad as anyone. I’m saying this all to myself as much as you. Happy end of another lockdown. Don’t die out there.