Analgesics

Last night, half a xanax really didn’t touch the sides. I can feverishly remember every time I rolled over in the night. Back pain is a good remedy for snoring. Also a good remedy for sleep.

Any notion I had that I would be avoiding painkillers largely to keep an eye on potential damage have gone out the window. Brian had something American for migraines and I dropped it this morning with my vitamins and minerals, after a bad sleep. When it finally kicked in it was bliss. Movement again. When I felt myself coming down again late afternoon, I begged paracetamol off Esther and it kept me happily able to do all the things until rehearsal was over. Shoelaces are still an adventure and standing up from seated is a fascinating and involved process. Most of the rest of the things are in my grasp, largely without yelping suddenly.

It was a long day. We don’t get much more time at this, so we have to take rehearsal while we can. Another few stabs through and I’m starting to get a handle on the arc of it. It’s not the biggest, not the smallest. He has places to go to. Gotta find the hooks and dig into the clarity. So little time, it’ll always be a hack, but that’s why I’m here. To learn it. It’ll come back with The Factory and finally I’ve done my homework. Supposed to be doing Cloten. Heigh ho.

Nice bunch. Thank God. Barristers and enthusiasts. Couple of teachers, couple more actors, some that used to be an actor but family or money or consistency was too pressing. Toby at the heart of it. He works with light. I like him very much. Morale always trickles down. We all just lost our weekend, but at the end of the day today we all stayed later than we needed, in order to form a human chain and bring hundreds of chairs into Speech Room. The boys are coming back. End of the summer holidays and the weather to prove it.

I drove home and Brian had left some chicken in the fridge for me. Glorious. I’m full of it now and in bed. It’s too early for electric blanket but I’m sorely tempted already. Half eleven and already the local foxes are yipping in the street behind me – they’ve grown very bold now. I’m glad the cats are house cats.

I’m gonna make a chamomile and switch myself off. My birth month in the morning, but Autumn always makes me a little melancholy. I might have to get one of those sun lamps as I’ve been sad enough this summer.