Spring

It’s Jethro’s birthday. The 24th and the edge of summer. Light returning, heat returning. Our little cat friend has got to be a whole week still in her cone. I honestly thought she’d be done by now. She hates that cone, it weighs her down. It’s not the Boo I’m familiar with. Poor baby.

Meanwhile once again I’ve got dental fun. My repeated abscess tooth has carved out a huge well in my gum and bone where infection can develop and grow. Since one tooth got pulled I’ve been waiting for it all to go to crap again. Tonight it is manifesting again oh joy. I’m gonna wait and see if the infection is something my body knows, as it only hurts so much right now and natural is better than artificial. Yeah I’ve got my codeine and two different options for antibiotics should it all go to fuckery. I’ve learned to be prepared as I can’t just randomly take days off work like so many people. I’ve honed myself for an acting career that is even more complete than the one I’m experiencing. If I’m gonna have a tooth flare up I need to have multiple options to destroy it so I can do my job. I’ve still got three courses of Cipromax from the Saudis. But ideally I’ll use one of the gentler courses I’ve hoarded over the years.

I’m gonna try and fix myself with self care first. Early bed, good brushing, all that malarkey. No harm in trying. I’ll try and sleep on my left, but I know that’ll just mean me snoring as unless I can gravity lock myself I end up on my back, and there’s a wall on my left. Still gonna try.

The light was strong today, a statement of intent. We are coming home now, back to a world where we don’t have to pay hundreds and hundreds of pounds just to not be somewhere cold.

I’ve been looking at eBay again today. I bought some cards to resell, and they got shilled up to my maximum bid which was more or less exactly 50% of their resell value and eBay can’t see it. I’ve remembered that aspect of me between jobs where I just start looking at potential harmless profit. Little jobs here and there, whatever the hell is available. I once had a monster observe my odd job economy and think it was common. At the time I was using various tasker websites to bump up income, but largely the economy didn’t work. I dunno where he is now. He owes me £400 in borrowed money and about 6 grand in unpaid wages. He pumped and dumped and jumped. Probably in prison now. Last we spoke it was for a short term loan (likely drugs, it was a last minute panic of his. I used to give a fuck before I computed how much he fucked me for on a job.) I told him if he paid me back £400 I’d consider loaning him £300. He didn’t follow through. Hey ho. Likely that’s that.

I’m off to bed. I’m enjoying the fact it’s J’s birthday. He and I have noticed many curious alignments over the years. There’s still much to do. I’ve got it and there’s nothing you can do about it cos you’ve got it so there’s nothing I can do about it cos I’ve etc etc until infinity.

Spring. February is finally throwing its weight around, or is it Jethro? Either way, a lovely day.