Cat

And so. Daytime I’m just here. Night I’m chilling. Sending tapes and winning when I can. A strange existence but focused. A cat definitely helps.

I’ve aligned with and written about cats many times. Fundamentally simple creatures on one level, but the Egyptians were right to revere them. There’s something they know. We all know that they bristle for ghosts. They see things.

I went to my bro Rupert tonight. We made friends over summer, he pissed me off with simplistic thinking, I pissed him off with simplistic thinking, we both accepted that the world is huge and impossible. We stayed friends because our mathematics track, we just notice and value different things. Neither of us are eugenicists. We’re just looking to a happy world through our prism.

Now I’m home. The last hour has been entirely about playing with Boo, who has evidently been wondering what the hell has happened to this flat she organised with Brian Lou and Al all ready and willing to play with her forever. It’s just me now.

These cats, they intervene for us on levels we can never fathom. Don’t fuck with cats.

Even in Baldurs Gate 3, and I’m shameless about the fact I’m playing it in my spare time. My bard can talk with animals. The cats are all narcissists. It’s hilarious and wonderful and just another example of how Larian worked hard to make every option workable. This game… I honestly don’t know how it could ever be bettered. I look to that possibility. But… I messaged my friend who voices one of my favourite tanks. She’s a barbarian, and my Dungeons and Dragons character is always a barb. 100% committed, powerful yet vulnerable, open hearted. She’s in my main party even though I used my rpg knowledge and game mechanics to get the most incredible sword for my githyanki fighter. It’s bound to githyanki, and technically it should be vorpal and thus instakill on a natural 20. But it’s still absurdly good. But I prefer to have Karlach because she actively makes me laugh – her reaction just now when Minthara went into fine print about Wyll’s infernal contract, after I totally sorted her stuff out… I laughed so hard I had to put my Steam Deck down.

But yeah, I’ve been looking at tax and hiding in computer games when it gets too much. I think I’ll have a very hard thing finished by the end of the weekend. But it has made me shit at social occasions. I’m glad I took the time to see my bro. I’m sad I missed a lovely friend’s gig. But I don’t want to be out in boozeland right now.

And I’m lucky to have a small black cat looking after me.