Shiftings

Today was one of those days we wait for.

Lou has a very well thumbed i-ching that comes out from time to time, and with the Pisces new moon yesterday, it was a good time for settling intentions, if you’re into all that stuff. I like to take the opportunity for buying into woowoo when it presents itself. It was reasonably vague, as these things are. “Trust in the processes you have already put into place.” Oh and “Be more sexy”. (These are my refinements, the book is much denser and more obtuse.) I had asked about work.

I got up this morning early and missioned back to London in time to invigilate two exams in The Great Hall at Imperial. My emergency day job. Long hours in a concentrated room. If you have half learned lines like I do for Scene and Heard, it’s a great chance to embed them while making sure nobody is panicking or cheating. Not much time for lunch, so at noon I grabbed a curry from the student union and then went back into the hall. A decision moment. I went online to book a flight to Osaka for two weeks leaving in April. I’ll work the rest of it out later. Fuck it. A short pilgrimage, fitness, heat and newness. And the flight was super cheap. Jack’s Flight Club.

As I was waiting for my card to go through with the payment my phone rang and it was my agent with NEWS. It’s a call I’ve quietly allowed myself to hope for over the years. Blind optimism has kept me rolling the acting dice for decades now. There are plenty of lovely mad people still running alongside me. We all SIN-WAVE up and down this impossible and cruel career path. Mostly we are sustained by joy when we get to do the thing we set out to do, and fellowship whether or not it is a good time. We all enjoy each others ups and commiserate with each other in the downs.

I hit an unexpected up today, out of the blue. A working relationship built years ago out of pure joy and geekiness has led to something really wonderful that I’m not gonna talk about just in case. But yay! I’ve said here that I could feel it shifting. “Trust the processes you’ve already put in place.” Man it can be hard to trust when the blows are coming in. But great news at last. “It’s not the universe, it’s cos you’re bloody good at your job,” says Brian. I’ll settle for a bit of both. It came in as I was booking the Japan pilgrimage. Seems like that was the right idea for sure. Anyone got anyone in Osaka? I’m going off half cocked as usual and a first night stay with somewhere to leave my luggage would save on lockers and hotels. Worth asking I guess. Oh frabjous day.